By Christopher Woods
You watched him as he kept messing with the cord that ran from the oak tree in the middle of
the yard to the new bird feeder. You thought it would never hang at just the right height to please
him. You kicked the ground with the toe of your tennis shoe. Then, every once in awhile, you
would bend down and snare a weed growing between the bricks of the walk that crisscrossed the
lawn. You broke the weeds off at the surface, knowing they would be back again soon. To him,
this yard was a miniature Versailles. That is what he called it. To you, it was all pretense, so
much like the other yards in the suburban neighborhood.
“Looks fine,” you told him, even if he hadn’t asked your opinion.
“Maybe,” he replied, unsure, as he tied the knot in the cord. “I don’t want it to be so high that
we can’t reach it to refill it.”
“So who can refill it?” you asked, kicking the ground again.
“It will be my job,” he said, without emotion.
“Okay, that does it,” he said with a tone of accomplishment. For a moment he stood back,
studying the feeder hanging in the still July air. “Now, let’s go inside, fix a highball and wait for
So you went inside for a “highball.” He was from another era. You always knew this. But
only in the last few months had you decided how much of a mistake it had been to come live
You weren’t even sure why you stayed at all, in that house decorated by his wife. The room
she died in was preserved like a damned shrine, from the medical bed to the tray of pills on the
bedside table. Brother! You put up with it. He said it was a small thing, his way of honoring her
memory, and it didn’t mean he loved you any less. And he was probably telling the truth, the old
Your truth was this. You had been coasting for years, ever since getting out of prison. No, he
never knew about that, and he never would. Why tarnish the image he had of you? But you had
seen and done it all, from cocktail waitress to hostess at a bowling alley, from your brief stint in
porno films to a fine art “model.” You made some friends, lost them, and eventually began to
miss them as their hard edges began to fade. You didn’t have to work as long as you lived with
him. You didn’t have to do a damned thing but be around him, with him, there for him when he
needed you. Hell, he was a needy bastard, a weak sister. He was coasting through his retirement,
but as far as you were concerned, he was already dead, just like the rest of the neighbors up and
down the street. Everything was about comfort, and security. No one was even fucking
alive. And none of them even knew it.
You’ve thought about it, what attracted you to him in the first place. You’ve decided it was
his hands. They were large and comforting, fatherly maybe. You never thought you were like so
many women who needed a father type to get through life. Maybe you were that kind of woman
all along. Or maybe you just liked his hands. His hands more or less made up for his eye. It was
the right one, and it was what they called lazy. The lid never opened entirely. If he looked
directly at you, at anyone really, he looked like he was waking, or else falling asleep.
But there was something else about his eye. It was spooky. When he was driving, or looking
into the distance, say across a field, the lid opened all the way. On its own. He had no control. He
said he might have something to do with vision crisscrossing distance, but he didn’t know. No
As he stood in the breakfast room off the den, looking for blackbirds, you watched him. The
lazy eye was wide open. The damned thing had a mind of its own. You wondered what he was
thinking about. You knew what you were thinking about. You were wondering why this strange
old coot was interested in blackbirds anyway. Some people, bird nuts, go for hummingbirds or
blue jays, cardinals, one thing or another. Who gave a shit about blackbirds? He did. He said no
one else cared about them, so he took it on as his job. His duty. Brother! They gave you the
creeps, made you think of shadows and sadness and disease. But you didn’t tell him. It was his
The day he brought home the bird feeder, he was all hot and bothered. He told you this model
was top of the line. The label on the box said it was “the ultimate feeder.” It was designed like a
buffet table. He had bought sunflower seeds, wild bird mixes and thistle seed, and everything
went in its own compartment. That way, the birds could take whatever they liked, like a buffet.
The damned thing had nine different feeding stations.
After he made such a big production of setting up the feeder, you were pleased that no birds
showed up for a few days. If he was disappointed, he didn’t let on. But you noticed how, in the
morning, he would go out to check on the feeder, look closely at the feeding stations. He made
sure there was enough of everything. Then, one morning, before he left for a retiree luncheon,
you asked him why he was so interested in blackbirds. And he told you.
He said that blackbirds were omens. They were associated with an old saint, one whose name
you didn’t quite catch. That saint was an angel. In fact, he was the tallest angel in heaven. Which
meant he could see a long, long way, across the world, heaven to hell. The whole enchilada.
And although it hadn’t been completely explained, you knew the score. He was hoping for a
message from the dead wife. Imagine! No matter what he said, if he loved you, all that crap, you
knew you didn’t count for much in that house. If you did, there would be no need for blackbirds.
Then, that afternoon, while he was still at his luncheon, really just an excuse for highballs,
you were passing through the den. You saw it plainly. The first customers had arrived. Four big
blackbirds were feasting at the buffet. You watched them from the window as they greedily ate
You must have snapped. Before you even realized it, you were out in the yard, running
toward the feeder and the blackbirds. You clapped your hands and screamed at them.
“Go, you bastards, and take the dead bitch with you!” you yelled. You remember this well.
They were gone instantly, but you could hear their cries nearby, from the safety of adjoining
yards. Standing alone in the yard, you looked at your hands. They were red from clapping.
That night, you didn’t tell him about the blackbirds. You ate dinner mostly in silence while
he watched the stock reports on the television. Then the two of you went to bed. Next to him, and
looking at his old grey body, you made your decision. It was easy. You decided right after you
asked him why the buffet was only for blackbirds. How could he keep away the other birds? His
eyelid began to flutter a bit, and he said that this buffet was only for blackbirds, that no other
birds would dare come. Ever. And then he smiled, and when he did, his lid stopped fluttering. It
was a frightening thing.
Maybe there was nothing wrong with him. He was genuinely good, not out to take advantage
of you. For a time, you were satisfied with that. Only after many months did you realize
something. You were bored to death. If you stayed, you’d be like him and his neighbors. Now,
you were also scared.
The next morning, you did not tell him you were going. He went to see a financial advisor for
a luncheon appointment. More highballs. While he was gone, you got your things together. You
didn’t want anything that belonged to him. You laughed about this. At any other time in your
life, you would have stripped the damned place. But you didn’t want anything of his because it
would remind you of the dead wife, the dead neighbors, the dead man you lived with for a time.
There was only one thing left to do. You got the big butcher knife and headed for the buffet.
There were no blackbirds there, but you knew it was only a matter of time until they came back.
You cut the cord that ran from the feeder to the oak tree. When the buffet hit the ground, bird
seed went flying in every direction. You took it for an omen. You would be okay, no matter
where you landed next.
Christopher Woods is a writer, teacher and photographer who lives in Texas. He has published a novel, The Dream Patch, a prose collection, Under a Riverbed Sky, and a book of stage monologues for actors, Heart Speak. His photographs can be seen in his gallery. He is currently compiling a book of photography prompts for writers, From Vision to Text.