persian silk
By Monica Barrett
somewhere on west 4th i collapsed
i woke up with my cheek reddened
from hot asphalt because july in new york
is no place for a girl who won’t eat
and what a relief it was to know
i wasn’t the only one who had dreamt
of contracting some deadly disease,
not deadly enough to kill me, just enough
to whittle myself down to almost nothing
i’m so sorry that you have to have a body.
my body is the thing i need to escape, the
reason i can’t be won’t be loved, the reason
you couldn’t want me. isn’t that what you
meant, after all?
instead, i’d like to be the tree my mother
loves so much. persian silk, it’s called.
i’d like to be a home for cicadas, a resting spot
for bumblebees. i’d like to look down at myself,
resting in my own shade, to be the thing that
brings me solace. i’d like to be something
miraculous in spring.
Monica Barrett (she/her) is a poet from Las Vegas. She lives in Brooklyn.