apricot season
By Kolbe Riney
My brother
does not warn me
when he outs me
to our parents.
The truth comes
in whimpers
from the kitchen,
my chest proved flesh
scalloped away
with a paring knife,
etching a heart
ridged
and tender
as a stone pit
to the soil
in autumn.
My grief
is the apricot
I plant
in my best friend’s yard,
asking him
over my shoulder
as the spade jumps
if he believes
it is only me
who cries
in coral,
or if my brother
cries, too.
He shrugs,
rests me
until the snow comes,
the comforter sliding white
over my eyes
while his mother
boils jam
in the kitchen,
the sugar
whispering
from fruit
and bloom
comes something else.
In spring
I drive to California,
a gas-station bag of dried apricots
sleeping on the seat.
I snap the leather-soft skins
with my tongue,
and do not tell
my brother
my visit is for him.
Kolbe Riney (she/they) is a queer poet and student based out of Tucson, Arizona. Her work is featured or forthcoming in several publications, including Penumbra Literary & Art Journal, Passages North, the West Trade Review, and others. Learn more: https://kolberiney.wixsite.com/website